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Living In The Solution, Part II

Posted 8/8/2009 @ 2:30:46 pm by recoverymonologue.com

Its been a year since I last touched this topic. Living in the solution has made a marked difference in this addict's life. Today, I've learned to rest my heart and soul through quiet readings that I do during the day. I make it a point to speak to my sponsor on a regular basis, even to just say, "I'm okay." My mind doesn't race around with thoughts of acting out or feel demoralized because of secret actions I took when no one was watching. I have real relationships with people I stay in contact with on a weekly and sometimes daily basis. People who I regard as friends and do not judge me or I them. In living in the solution I make it a point to look to do the next right action. Recovery is an action we do on a daily basis, moment by moment, in tune to our Higher Power's rhythm. I know it is not my idea of what my agenda should be because left to my own devices...I'm an addict. I can generally get myself in trouble real quickly. So my spiritual condition has to be checked several times a day, sometimes moment by moment to ensure I'm walking a path of integrity and peace. Serenity is the by product that comes out of living in the solution and as the promises states, "Sometimes quickly and sometimes slowly the promises will come, if we work for them...that is the key...we have to work for them. This isn't a free ride, however the conductor on the ride has all the answers, He's the one with, "God" on His nametag. Ask Him and He'll show you the way. Thank you Papa.

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  • janine @ 08/08/2009 ( 6:03:50 PM )
    ok, another small miracle--because even though i picked up my yellow chip today i am feeling like shit and just kind of holding on, and in there --then i get a call from lj, and then my sponsor --then i read this blog and it is a little tap upside the head--stay in the solution and get out of my pity, my sense of lonliness--i am not alone--how apparant this is to me at this moment--stay in the solution, focus on my higher power and listen to my higher power--when i focus on it i see a light that has no name--a source of love that is a mystery but there all the same---blessings to all--janine
  • Ted N @ 08/08/2009 ( 7:46:05 PM )
    What a great post. Today I am happy to say that I am living in the solution also as a result of working this progam and asking for help from my Higher Power everyday to keep me sober one more day. I don't know how it happened, but I went from being an obsessive compulsive non stop addict to a responsible mature adult. WHAT! When did that happen. It has been a slow gradual process and it has been painful at times. And it is still on going. I am not finished, nor will I ever be. But as long as I continue to live in the solution and do the next right thing, I will always be moving in the right direction, I will always be living life on life's terms, I will always be acting as a mature adult and be able to do what I need to do for myself. And, yes, the promises have started to come true and will continue to come true for me, I know, because my Higher Power has not let me down yet, as long as I don't let Him down and do my part.
  • Tad @ 08/09/2009 ( 2:13:53 PM )
    Someone shared the other day that before he started earnestly recovering, he played "the Muzak of Me" 24/7. I relate. Who needs an Ipod when I already have the constant drone of my little wants and worries keeping me entertained(and in a funk)?

    Staying in the solution for me includes daily spot checks on whether I'm listening to my old Muzak, or thinking about others; thinking about what I can get, or what I can contribute.
  • Kreg @ 08/17/2009 ( 10:58:01 PM )
    I am an ADDICT!!!! So true is the statement that I could get into trouble so easily kind of like riding a bike. However, this is one ride I never want to get back on. Today, I am riding a brand new bike called Life... I am learning more and more about the solution, my Higher Power, myself, and so much more. The things that used to bother me and send me running for the isolation door, just dont bother me... I am learning to face them head on. The door to the solution is wide open and I have walked into the foyer... The solution is so huge and I've only scratched the surface. God bless all who share you have truly help light my path...
  • Dan @ 08/26/2009 ( 1:28:47 PM )
    Living in the solution is a great topic. Today I finally reached out for help. I made an appointment with a therapist for tomorrow. I am happy, and feel good that I reached out, and giving myself the opportunity to talk to somebody who might have some insight on me and addiction. I hope my therapist will be able to help me shine the spot light on the things that I am not seeing so well. Don’t get me wrong, recovery (and just as importantly- turning it over to God) is still on me. I have been stuck in a pattern of not being proactive with my recovery, not reaching out, hiding in my honey hole. I have not been journaling, nor going on recovery monologue..... So here I am -- writing, and feeling good about it. I do want to BE recovering, and do want to be in the solution. Today I am in the solution, and recovering. Thanks everybody for your on going support.
  • Ted N @ 11/30/2009 ( 12:01:25 AM )
    As I start to move into new areas of my life I need to focus on living in the solution. There are so many ways to approach the things that I want to do. Example – I wanted to go to that event last night. I knew that it would not be a good idea for me to go alone because of the potential to be triggered and because of the drinking. I did not know what to expect. So, I made a decision that I was not going to go even though I worked earlier in the week for it and all day setting up for it. However, after seeing everything that was being set up and hearing more about it while we were setting up, it sounded like something I really wanted to be a part of. But I was not going to do something that was not safe. Another guy was talking for a while about wanting to go but could not go because he also did not want to go alone, etc… I said nothing and just listened and thought about what I should do. After I kept hearing what he was saying over and over I thought this is an opportunity being placed in front of me that I should take. I spoke up and offered to go with him to the party. I explained that I was in recovery so I could make it as safe for myself as possible. And we both went to the party. As it turned out he was also in recovery. It was a great night because I was able to enjoy the event and stay in the solution by being honest about who I am and what I can and cannot do. And as a result I was not triggered by anything. I just enjoyed being there and enjoyed being myself and being part of something spectacular. Just a few days ago I was feeling hopeless about being able to branch out and meet people even though I am in recovery and after yesterday I feel completely different about it. I feel positive and excited that I can have a good time and meet people and talk to them as stay in the solution all at the same time and I end up staying sober at the end of the night. All I have to do is keep doing what I do and I will be ok. I just need to do the work. And I finally completed my step 9 tonight which will make my sponsor happy so that is staying also in the solution and I can move on to step 10. A good night and a good weekend!
  • Ted N @ 12/30/2009 ( 1:59:05 AM )
    I was looking for a different topic tonight but this one is actually good. I wanted to share about letting go because that is what I need to do when it comes to issues with my brother. I am on stand by with him as he decides when he wants me to give him my amends. I could very easily get frustrated and angry and it is very difficult to keep that at bay. So I need to let these feelings go and just keep moving on with my life. When he gets back to me he will get back to me. I know at this point it is in his time. And hopefully I will be able to be there. But the reason this topic is good is because I need to remember to stay living in the solution. That is the key. If I can do that then I will be ok. It is not always easy, especially when he is involved. But I need to do it. I need to pray for as much help as I can get. So I will. Please help me stay in the solution and please help me just live my life and let this not consume me.
  • Phil @ 06/28/2010 ( 4:59:18 PM )
    To me, it doesn't feel like I am living in "the solution". It feels like I am loving in the "checklist".

    3 meetings a week - check.
    Call sponsor today - check.
    Read Answers in the Heart - check.
    Do my 12 Step work - check.
    Don't act out today - check.
    Mark up my PCI chart - check.

    For me, it feels still like I have all these reminders that I am an addict, that I have to do all the things to keep me safe from falling back into it, that I need to study my lessons for a new clean peaceful life, that I am PREPARING for the "Solution".

    Another reminder that it's the journey, not the destination that matters. A happy and fulfilled life is the destination, but all we can do today is to make sure we are still moving and on the right road.

    Bless us all and wish us a good trip.
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